baffling

Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out! “Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?” Romans 11:33-34

My life is an Old Testament story – you know one where God manifests in a way that doesn’t make sense. One you would never want someone to pattern their life after. One you have no idea what you’re suppose to do with what you just read. There is an innate tendency to reject what appears foreign, antiquated, anomalous. Despite my thoughtful reasoning regarding the necessity of dichotomies, my heart remains speechless when asked why God allows so much evil. Regardless how literal you wish to read the commands spelled out in black and white, not one was written in English, by an American, during the past 1900 years.

So we are left in an uncomfortable place when all we have are the details of our lives and the ever evolving nature of our beliefs. Some take a more conservative route and their boundaries narrow as they navigate right and wrong. Some find a more liberal path leading to wide open spaces as they traverse good and evil. I still want to trust in a God who works for good regardless – in some cases it may require extenuating circumstances, possibly even breaking a rule. But aren’t His judgments unsearchable, His mind unknowable, His ways unfathomable, beyond all we expect or imagine? Whenever I hear someone say “God would never…” I can’t help but think “never say never.”